I started this blog initially to chronicle my (failed) attempt at life without Facebook for 40 days. I only made it a total of eight days. Then I found a new direction...
Shortly after my "angry fat chick" rant, I found inspiration in a flabulous book called "Fat! So?" by Marilyn Wann (buy a copy!). It is a great life affirmation for anyone who is not ashamed to be more than average size. I have struggled my entire life with the fact that I don't fit the images I see on TV, movies and magazines. But the truth of the matter is that if you look around, most of us don't even come anywhere close to that standard of measurement.
So I have decided to embrace my flabulous self and ditch anyone who cannot accept me "as-is" -- well except for maybe my mother (which is another story for another therapist). Life is too short to be concerned about what the ignorant guy on the bus or the rude teenagers at the malls are chuckling about. And I've got a few witty and "over-your-head" comments for them as I encounter them now, too! (Who died and made you Richard Simmons?)
This may make it seem like I am a loose cannon, but I have begun to find my confidence, and I am going to hang onto it for dear life -- cause it's a better life than I've allowed myself to have up to this point. I have started walking, making sure to eat a few more vegetables, and a few less M-n-Ms. I LIKE the way I feel, and I am healthier now than I have been in the past 10 years. I have a long way to go, but I'm going to get there.
This is my journey...but I am inviting you to come along if you like!
Flabulous regards -- Selina
Well, welcome to the revolution. You and I have a lot of history in common, including the pre-pubescent WW membership. I too was a 12 year old WW member the first of the SEVEN times I was a member. And it took me half my life to realize that dieting was the pulled pin in my disordered eating grenade.
ReplyDeleteOnce I gave myself permission to have a normal relationship with food,and to realize that food has no moral context and no righteous/sinful nature lo and behold, it lost its stranglehold on me. Am I still fat? Yup. Have I ever let it stop me from doing the things I want to do in my life? Nope. Rock on, girl.
Thanks! I am not going to spend another penny on diets or gym memberships! I had no idea I was this outspoken but it's been a very freeing experience! I'm going to keep writing about it -- and hopefully what Marilyn's book did for me, I can do for someone else :-)
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