Loose Cannon

I am about to go off of the deep end; I can feel it in my bones.  There is only so much a gal can take before she just snaps completely.  So before that happens, I am going to take off -- get away -- and hopefully refuel my engines for the onslaught I see looming on the horizon. 

Usually I go away for a weekend and work on my scrapbooks, which is cathartic for me on a number of levels.  I get to add to the memories that my family is making and spend some time with some like-minded gal pals.  Not this time though.  On Friday morning, I am leaving on a jet plane, and though I have a round-trip ticket, there is a distinct and tangible temptation to forget about that come Monday morning when reality comes calling. 

Most of the time, I lead a quiet, virtually unobtrusive existence.  I go to work, take care of my children, and keep my nose clean as a responsible citizen.  This weekend, all bets are off.  This girl is going wild, and she may never fully return to the woman she once was.  I've gotten crazy from time to time, and it's such a freeing experience.  I am not suggesting a full-blown Thelma and Louise escapade here, but drawing a line in the sand and then stepping right over it can be just what the witch doctor ordered.  I recently discovered a quote that has become my new mantra, and I think it speaks volumes about where I am right now in my life.

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.  I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle.  But if you can't handle me at my worst than you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.                                               -- Marilyn Monroe
 

I am tired of doing the right thing just because that's what people expect for me to do.  I only get one life, and I am not going to stand idly by and be a spectator to my own existence.  I am taking the bull by the horns and lord have mercy on anyone who thinks they are going to stand in my way.  I am going after what I want, and if you're not with me on that then you just better get out of my way before you get run over in the process.   

If that makes me a loose cannon, then so be it.  No man ever apologizes for going after what he wants, and neither am I.  I am writing my own page in history one day and one misadventure at a time.  Come with me if you want to enjoy the ride -- or get out of the way.  Makes no nevermind to me!

And for inspiration, here's a song from a gal who's on the same page with me (and probably Thelma too).  I'll run with you any time Miranda!

Theme song #12:  Fastest Girl in Town by Miranda Lambert   
http://youtu.be/EbaEVA259IE

Sliding in by the seat of my pants,
Selina