The Soundtrack of My Life

If you love music at all, and I don't think that I could live without it, there are songs that are stamped on your heart.  They take you to a specific place and time every time you listen to them:

• your Prom theme song
• the first song you danced to at your wedding
• the lullaby you hummed to the new little baby in your arms
• the love song that marked the beginning of a new relationship
• the lyrics that marked the end of that relationship and the beginning of a heartbreak.

I could go on, but I think you get the idea.  Along with those moments that mark the soundtrack of my life, there are songs that reflect specific people that have come and gone in my life.  I have a bunch of songs that bring a smile to my face as I think about the friend that loved this song or that rock group passionately.  Then there have been times when I could not listen to a song because it hurt too much to think about that person, or that moment that went so horribly wrong.  A friend of mine on Facebook recently put this problem into perspective for me:

When you can finally listen to that one song that always reminded you of them & feel nothing, no sadness, no regret, no anger, then I feel that you have moved on.

For the longest time, there was one particular song that sent me back to a time and place that I did not want to go.  It tugged at my heart every time I heard it, and I could not shake the feeling that I had lost a piece of myself somewhere along the way.  And then shortly after seeing this quote, I heard that song -- the one that had caused me so much angst for so long, and it was an epiphany; I realized that I had moved on.  I did not feel a thing, and I don't really know how or when it happened.  It felt amazing and there really aren't adequate words to describe how liberated I felt.  Call it closure if you will, but I don't think it's that simple.  Some things never get the wrapping and ribbon that is needed before you stack them in the closet of your memories.

I've already got a pretty good boxed set going on in my head for the soundtrack of my life, but there is always room for more musical memories.  Here's one of my favorite songs about this very subject -- from one of my favorite cowboys.  Take it away Kenny!

Theme Song #7: I Go Back by Kenny Chesney

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The song remembers when,
Selina